Its been forever since i wrote in this thing....
High school is almost over : )
goin to prom with richie dollard
my dress is soooo pretty
Goin to University of Pittsburgh - Ive wanted to go there forever!!
thats about it : )
wow....Justin Rogers died this morning...It's so sad!! I have known him practically my whole life. In first grade he used to draw me pictures of snakes and tell me that he loved me...and now he is dead? What made it him instead of any of us? It is really weird...Me and Leslie Naser were talking about it and she told me that he ALWAYS takes Jefferson straight all the way to school...then today he takes the back road for the first time, and look what happens. It's so sad.....
welp, i'm pretty sure whatever brian and i had is over....i am so sick of his shit. I thought i would be upset that we arent really talking or whatever anymore, but i really dont care. After thinking he was the bombest for like 2 years, i thought he would be like the guy of my dreams. But, as cute as he is, he doesnt have much of a personality. Everytime i was with him or even talked to him i felt empty. He doesnt care much about anyone but jack, and i dont really like feeling like the runner up to his friends. So oh well. Its done just like that i guess. No big loss, i guess i was just expecting so much more than what i got.
I havent written for a while, so how is everyone?
Everything has been pretty good for me...New semester is pretty gay so far, I am not really looking fwd to Russian history...Hey, not that I dont care about Russia, but ya know....Oh, and the new German teacher is so retarded! He is typing up a set of rules and regulations for his classes....and we have homework...UM, NO! Its really weird...
Lunch is fun, Nate Griffith is in there, and me & Erin & Darcie just talk about his QT potential half the period. We might sit with him sometimes, which should be interesting! Its weird tho, I miss Andrew and Doug and Kelly and Mauri and Corey and etc etc...(and christine!) We had so much fun in that period!!!
Anyways, things with Brian are okay...We were supposed to go out Sunday, but since i waited til like 4 to call him, him and jack went to the mall. Haha, I was mad, but when he was telling the story it was so funny that I understood how it could happen. Oh well, tonite he asked me to come over tomorrow, but he can't pick me up from school (because he is seriously the laziest person i know!) so if i decide to go over i have to find a ride...I dont know if i feel like trying to find a ride, but i do want to see him...so who knows.
WELL, i think i wrote a novel here, so thats it for now. ~~Have fun~~
I never update this....anyways, we've been havin fun at dougs... :)
And me and KT quit work....other than that, nothing has been happenin. Kates got a new boy...hes a cute lil guy(well hes taller than me) and hes a lot cooler than Dlicious....she knows who i am talking about
but anyways, thats about it...
I finally got my tattoo yesterday night...Its cute, I like it! (thats good, considering I'll have to live with it for a while)...It didnt even hurt that bad...well, it hurt, but not as bad as i thought it would...It hurts more now though!!! Its making my whole back sore :(
But anyways, looks as if Lance (ben) has a girlfriend...she called him when he was givin me my tattoo...haha, too bad for me, he was a HOTTIE!!!!!!!!!! Oh well, probably too old. I wonder if i will ever find anyone else that looks like lance........ :)
Since I havent written for a long time, I guess I will give a little update. Last night I went and picked out my tatoo! Its a little blue moon with starbursts around it...I am getting it done on Monday, it should be fun (and painful)! The guy who works at the tatoo place it young, and he's REALLY cute. He looks like lance from nsync...OOOOH baby! Anyways, what else is there to write? Things are boring as all hell in good ol' Washington. Oh, I got a job at TJ Maxx. Me and Kate are workin together! Hehe, good fun! And I am practically failing school...and I feel real sick...but other than that...... :)
Well, i am back form vacation, and I had a good time...I wish i lived at the beach! Anyways, Chels, I know how you feel (or felt) about not knowing why or how you have changed. I feel like I dont know myself too well anymore, but I dont even know why. I like how things are now, but I also want things to go back to how they used to be when I knew who I was. I feel like things for me are changing so fast, like I am growing up or something...I feel so empty, but whats missing?
Haha, i dont even have to write about what happened on Friday...Me, Kate, and Kelly are now grounded, but it was fun! All i gotta say is.............
I LOVE SHEP!!
I have been sitting here talking to Chelsea, and reading everyone's old journal entries...isn't it funny how things people talked about before that had no connection to you at the time can have relevence to your current situation? I guess that goes to show that other people DO know how you feel, cause they have been through it too. I hate how things can't all be good. Like, something in my life is ALWAYS gonna suck, and when that thing starts not to suck so bad, something else starts to suck even worse...